Salty pre-Christmas feels

***WARNING*** I'm salty AF in this post. Consider yourself warned.

With Christmas coming closer each day I feel more and more sentimental. Every year, but this year in particular made me sentimental in quite a bitchy way to be honest. I lost some friends and some money during the year. And I really feel bad about the money.

Every person I talk to goes Christmas shopping, goes home and just generally does what ever they want right now, but not me. That makes feel a little bitchy here and there. Yeah, I'm green of envy. This year I had no time to go Christmas shopping for my family in Canada so I will have to go on Monday, basically my last half day in London this calendar year, but I also wanted to go hang out with my best friend, who is leaving to Sweden on Tuesday.

I'm leaving home on Wednesday, but I'm still envious of those, who are already at home.

And the people I feel the most envious of are those, who have already had their shoot and are in post production, which is about 99% of our class. And then there is that one group, which is finished completely, because their edit was just extremely easy. While mine will not be! Fuck me right???!!!! We haven't even shot yet!!!! Double fuck me right!!!! I know.

I think I should have some cheese with this whine. But really. I would rather be kicked in the stomach right now, because I'm almost sure that would hurt less.

So yeah this very moment I'm not feeling all this Christmas crap going on and I quite cannot wait to go home and see MY family. Not somebody else's on their story posts on instagram or snapchat.

-Misha