Live passionately
It's been about 2 weeks since my last post. I wish I had an amazing reason why that is, however the only thing that there is is the fact I am just so busy and also that my laptop is broken (has been for 2 weeks now). So that's that about the reason why.
But to get back on track~
In these 2 weeks I found myself doing things I haven't thought I would be doing right now, but while these things are happening in my life I found out quite an interesting thing about myself.
I want to live passionately even if it doesn't exactly match my plans for the day or the week. No matter how cheezy this sounds I want to live, laugh and love; and I want to do all these things with the fire that I believe I have in me. Because, quite frankly, when am I going to do these things if not now? When I'm 40 or older? No, I don't really thing that's a good idea. On top of that, sometimes about some things I'm a very impatient person and I don't want to wait for the life to do something for me, because that's bullcrap. I'm not going to wait for things to come to me all the way, when I can meet them half way or even go all the way there, if it means I get them.
Maybe it's the lack of sleep talking or maybe it's something else, but at this point I don't really care about burnt out syndrome, even though it probably should be a concern of mine. I don't care because I don't want to care. I want to use this fire while I have it.
There are many things in my life these days that I should be doing, but I'm not. On the other hand there are things I've done and I'm not proud of them, however these things became a part of this weird thing called life. My life.
Some dayse I tell myself "F**k my life!" but in the end, it could be a lot worse, you know. Much. much worse. Yes, some days I feel like crying, some days I feel like killing a few individuals, but at the end of the day when I'm falling asleep on my bed I keep thinking that tomorrow is going to be better.
I do realize I haven't talked about much in this post but honetly in these past 2 weeks so much in my life changed but at the same time nothing has changed. Because so many things are going on at the same time I haven't been concentrating on changing one in particular more like they're all morphing together and I just somehow manage to pull the right string out sometimes and sometimes not. But oh well, shit happens.
For now I just know I want to enjoy this time in my life. I want to LIVE, LAUGH and LOVE. And I will do these things PASSIONATELY.
-Misha
