Brave enough?!

When you are brave enough to say goodbye, life will reward you with a new hello.

Or that's what they say...

I don't exactly know if i haven't been brave enough (even though that might just be the case) or haven't figured out the rewarding system in life.

How ever what I think is actually the case is that life itself doesn't reward you, it's this thing many people have reasons to hate - karma.

I'm almost 20 and I haven't figured out anything and at some points I keep doing the same mistakes, but with each repetition I find yet another way how things won't work out. Even freaking Edison had to take like 500 tries before finding the right one to make that light bulb work.

So what I'm actually saying is that this time I might have found enough courage to say the final goodbye. A few days ago I learned that I did. In the morning, just like that when I woke up I knew I worked up that courage and somehow said my farewells. I don't know if life is going reward me with a new hello or not, but what I do know is the fact that I found my way out of the maze of reflections that held me down. I found my own way of saying goodbye. And I'm proud of myself. For probably the first time in a long time I am actually genuinely proud of myself.

I don't know if, when or how the life is going to reward me or what. And frankly, at this point I don't care. Because if the life is not going to reward me so what?! To me it's a reward on its own that I did what I did. So what if I don't get another hello instantly! Instant gratification is bullshit. Life doesn't work that way and at this point in life (yes even though I'm just 19) I know this shit already.

So be brave enough to detach yourself and say goodbye to those things and people that might stop you from doing other things or from your personal growth. I know it will be a painful journey to actually cut the ties but in the end it's SO worth it! I'm not joking!

-Misha