Unpredictable

They say life is unpredictable. It makes twists and turns we don't expect and sometimes we barely make them inside the "road" of life. Or at least that's what we think. We think our life is worse than someone else's, but a lot of times that is only a thing called "point of view". We are the center characters of our life story. Unless someone comes and changes that point of view. I learned a long time ago that these people come and go; and the only ones that actually stay and change are the ones who helped us shape it.

No matter how much we oppose the fact, our parents love us. Or at least mine do. I know that for a fact. And there's also a person, onto whom I started leaning more and more in the past few years - my older brother, Milan. Even though when we were kids we "hated" each other (I think most siblings do at some point in their time spent together. Especially if you share a room pretty much for 13 years.) But at the end of the day I can't imagine my life without him. He takes care of me even though I don't see him as much anymore. I can always call him, text him, come to him and he will help me or at least try his best to do so.

Life is something we all consider as a given, but it's not true. Nothing is for free in this world, even the very existence of a person - at some point you will pay for it with death. I know these are the words no one wants to hear but it's how the world keeps spinning. Give and take. Always give and always take. Without a fault.

I know what you're thinking right now. "It's not true this thing you're saying. Some people get way more than others." And that is true, however somewhere in their life they will pay for they have received more. We might not see the toll because a lot of times we are oblivious to what other people might go through. Why? I have already said the reason. Becase we are the main characters of our own lives, we steer the wheel. Even though so many times we tell ourselves that isn't true, nevertheless, it's how life works. It makes us believe that we are not in charge of our own happiness.

And for those who can't, don't and won't believe it - do what you want. It's your life, I'm not saying how you should live it. I'm saying what I experienced and learned.

I made a mistake recently and yes I have thought it over countless times, telling myself all the "what if"s but always stayed on the same ground by the time I finished this or that one thought. 'What's done, that's done.' And even though I have told myself: "I wish I haven't done it this way." But in the end I learned not only something new about myself but also about people. (And proved myself that once again my dad was right in those two quotes of his that are too vulgar to write publicly.)

Long story short: No one gives a freaking damn. With an exception to this rule that 99.99% of people have. For me it's my family. And you know, exception validates the rule.

By the end of this monolog you either don't give a damn about what I think and read it only to shorten your while or you have given at least one thing (if not more) some thought. Either way, to those who actually made it up to here, thanks ^_^

-Misha